Leej twg lub neej...

Why do I wake up feeling so empty and hollow inside? Where does the pain go and how can I make it go by faster so I don't feel it at all anymore? Some say I'm suppose to feel this way but I don't want to anymore...

So this is how Bruno Mars felt when he sang "It Will Rain"

I realized that yes it's going to hurt and yes you're going to feel like crap after breaking up but we just have to move on, right? You don't see it but you can feel all the deep darkness without their presence or acknowledgement around you. You do feel like rain is pouring on you (or out of you) because of all the heart heaviness you have within. You feel like the world has gone upside down and you can't breath right anymore. You will feel miserable knowing that you will not be able to see/talk/listen to them and the reason why it is because they've become so intertwined into your life and they've become a habit. You can cry and scream and think about everything that you could have done to make it better for the next couple of days and realize that in the end, a decision was made and you have to live with it.

One makes life decisions all the time and this just happen to be another one. This is something that both of you have to live with and endure. I feel like the decision I made effected not only both of us but I would have to live with my decision MY ENTIRE LIFE. You can leave whenever you please but I can't once the choice has been made.