Seriously?

So the question about Xue and me getting serious has been asked.

I mean we are in a committed relationship to one another but I'm not ready for the next step. I like meeting his family and I like it when he comes over to meet some of my relatives(everyone lives in CA while I'm in MN) but I don't think I'm ready to think about marriage and who's gonna convert. If you're wondering why this came up, well he's in a family that is still practicing the traditional Hmong Culture whereas I am a Christian. I don’t want to feel that I have to convert because being a Hmong daughter-in-law I would have to regardless if I wanted to. I have to do that to “save face” of my parents and relatives (whether they are distant or not).

Regardless of that level or seriousness, I think that I’m more worried about making sure our long-distance relationship can last. I mean we see each other about once every other month or two months. That is a pretty long time but that gives us time to live our own life without feeling that you have to commit 24/7. I probably brought this up because sometimes, I just don’t feel like I’m being a “good” girlfriend to Xue because I barely have time for him during the day. The only time I really speak to him is before bed and we try to text throughout the day. I hate it, and I mean it with a passion, when he texts me and I’m so busy, either at work, school, or with HSO. I’m like, “Hello, get busy with something else because I am!!” I don’t know but that’s just how I feel.

So I think that about answers the question right?

Oh I need coffee...

I'm taking 16 credits this semester (about 6 classes) and I'm freaking out!! All these classes are for my MathEd major. On top of that I have HSO business all afternoon/evening on Wednesday.