What's on your mind?

God, I know that you have sent these important people in my life for a reason. I know you've taken me on this road and I still need your guidance in making the right decisions. It's just been just a mystery as to where I'll end up going or how I will be leading others to you.

I think that other relationships has taken a toll on me and I hope that you can break my heart to keep me strong and focused on the right road to you, Lord. It's hard being distracted and trying to accommodate to this human life. I think that you know me best and I lift myself up to you to use me how you'd like God.

School will soon come around and I hope to finally get into my program. I can't believe it's that time of the year. Fall will come and the leaves will change colors.

California, here I come this winter. I don't care how expensive you are, I'm coming and get ready for me! I miss my family soo much. I miss my mother more than ever and I should visit Dad. He's been on my mind a lot. I wish he could see the accomplishments that I have achieved in Minnesota. I wish he could see the changed Amee that has become more mature and smarter about life. I miss you Dad.

Love. Love more everyday and fear less. Linda Nyugen, I am so happy that you really emphasize on this. There are many levels of love and different ways to express it but definitely love one another and care for one another for we are here for one life time. I think I need to show my love more. Whether it's to my roommates or to the stranger I walk by on the streets.

Love one another and fear less.

Oh Life!

Goals for this week:
-finish packing my stuff at the apt to move to the new place!
-make some awesome eggplant relish or pasta!
-get to work on time
-Try Seven Elphants in STC
-enjoy the summer weather while it's still here
-start/finish the ASIA board for mainstreet

Fall semester is coming up and there is no time to waste! Definitely gonna be productive this week because I wanna finish this summer with an amazing transition into the fall.

**Keep an eye out for my pasta picture!

Forgiveness and Love

It's been a rough and crazy summer. It has actually been the best "down" time I've had since I started going to SCSU. Every summer since I've moved back in 2009, I worked and went to summer school. It has definitely been a wonderful experience

Besides the lost love and friendship from Xue, I think I've actually gained so much more in return. I've gained memories and experiences that has made life so much more fulfilling. I've loved and lost. I've coped and am now content.

So what I'm super happy about is all the events that followed. I finally got to spend family time with my Yaya and Masthais!! :) Oh how I missed these kids so much throughout the school year. I can't believe my Yaya is growing so fast for a 10 year old! Next thing you know it, she'll be running after boys and getting super dolled up. I don't hope for it but she'll want to experience it. The other week she asked how it feels to have a boyfriend! LOL. Masthais is growing into such a compelling teenager. Oh I wish I was this close with Rayray when we lived together.

And then there's this guy from far away. He's such a trip sometimes but he's awesome. I don't know but it's definitely a different feeling. Maybe it's because he's older, he's stable, he's ambitious, he's ... well the list can go on. Long distance is such a bummer but it surely makes every second so much more intriguing. I've learned to appreciate the people I love that live far away. Also, I've learned to appreciate time and money because nothing comes free in life.

STANDING STONES 2012: LIFE ON THE LINE HAS DEFINITELY MOVED ME. I am so blessed to have that support and family <3. I got baptized at SS12 and now I'm a part of God's bigger family. It was truly awesome. The message for each sermon touched me deeper and deeper and it definitely has shown me more guidance. I definitely felt the Holy spirit move through all campers, chaperones, volunteers, and staff at SS12. Til next year SS13!! :)

Oh summer, you're ending soon with the last week of online classes and getting back into work. St. Cloud bound from here on out.

Now I know

I finally know why these men that I've meet in my life like me. It's hard to accept sometimes because I surely don't see it as anything big. This while week has really opened my eyes to the types of guys I attract or what I'm attracted to. It's just so interesting.



Relationships are too difficult to try to get into now and I think God will have his way with my future. I'll just let him guide my way in life.



STANDING STONE HERE I COME!!

Memories are all we have now...

Trying to love someone can be tiring and make you feel unmotivated to try anymore. It's okay. I've accept and respect your decision that you made. I hope that you fall in love and experience happiness only. :)